MONEY FOR NOTHING…

… I wish, but there’s always something to pay..?

It seems being a native speaker of English in these parts is still a bit of a rarity, and without even opening my mouth, word has clearly gotten around already that I’m one of them.

Really needing to push the artwork at the moment though and the recent approaches from three people wanting ‘English Conversation’ to help develop their day to day conversational skills, has possibly come at slightly the wrong time for me. Being more money than enough coming in to pay the rent however, with zero income right now, I shouldn’t really turn it down, but may put it back till February since I’m relatively safe enough until then to push on with the artwork - I’ve got the possibly of an exhibition here in Białystok at the end of December which would have to be put off otherwise for christ’s-sake.

Mostly, Conversation Work is both enjoyable and easy money though - as I keep being reminded, but must confess, I always feel a little uneasy about getting paid for something I would normally, and feel should, give gladly and in abundance for nothing… It’s a bit like being a prostitute of the blarney really, only, from where the words would normally be gushing, there’s left a certain dryness in these forced situations, with me, often desperate for some easy flowing exchange of dialogue, resorting to ‘K Y Jelly’ for the vocal cords! In other words, where socially I love nothing more than a good natter with everyone and anyone, in an official capacity, I’m not altogether sure or convinced that I’m cut out for it? We’ll see though – I may still have little option come February!